I have always loved romance novels. From the first Mills & Boon book I borrowed from my lola, I graduated toSweet Valley High, Harlequin to Silhouette Romances . I watch sappy Hallmark Channel movies in my spare time (have over 100 saved on my hard drive). My ipad is filled with happily ever after rom-coms. Maybe this is why, because I never had my dream happy ending, I felt my life was not moving towards “happily ever after”.   And I would forever be hosting my own pity party.

I always thought that by this time in my life I’d be happily married with six children. As I got older and not having found my soulmate, I realize the happily married part might not be for me. And when I had a hysterectomy in 2014 I realized the six children might not be in the cards either. And I cried and I cried and I cried. But then I realize that my life wasn’t so bad.  My sister had cancer! Cancer. And all I had were 3 myomas. So I can’t have kids, but I have nephews and nieces who treated me like a second mom. And I have my Cuervo who is, as I call him, my only child who I spoil rotten. I don’t have a husband or a boyfriend but I have friends to watch movies with, or have coffee or dinners with. I have a family who puts up with all my crap, real or imagined. I have my own home stamped with personal touches in every corner.

This last year was difficult, filled with challenges for me and my family that I never imagined we would face. There are still obstacles ahead of us that we, as a family, are tackling together. But who doesn’t? Really.

I turn 50 this year. And though, thanks to Luminisce and Dr. Kaycee Reyes, I don’t look it (it’s my blog, walang kokontra!!), I will not deny that I am just a few months shy of being a Golden Girl. And perhaps, as I hit my personal milestone, it’s time I to start a new chapter in my life.   This year will be about celebrating the good, letting go of the bad and cherishing every thing and everyone. Tama na ang nega! I have been the victim of a drama I created. So it’s time to devictimize the victim. I will end that story and begin a new one filled with only good things.

This new year is a new 365-page book and it’s up to me to write my own story.  And that story begins today….BOW