I’ve always claimed to be an insomniac.  Not diagnosed by any medical professional, just by a professional hypochondriac.  For years I’ve managed to survive on little sleep. For the most part, I’d have a hard time falling asleep, but once I finally do, I’ll be knocked out for a good five or six hours.

If you ask my family and friends, they’ll tell you that there are two main causes for my difficulty in falling asleep.  One is the high volume of caffeinated and sugar-laced beverages I consume in any given day (Think a combo of Coffee, Iced Tea and Coke Light).  The other is sleeping with my laptop next to my bed.  Sometimes I have a hard time turning away from it or putting it to sleep.  In fact, I’ve been known to stare at the screen and watch how fast my TV shows are downloading.

I admit I do have some weird sleeping habits.  If I fall asleep before 12midnight, chances are I will wake up after two hours and not be able to sleep again for another four.  I also am not a napper.  When my officemates would take naps at their desk during lunch, I never did.  Why? Because I know I snore, so I just don’t nap.  This is probably a good thing because when I do take naps, it takes more time and energy for me to fall asleep at night.

As I’ve gotten used to falling asleep in the wee hours of the morning, I’ve always counted on my five or six hours.  But somehow, in the last month or so, sleep has been very hard to come by.  For the first couple of weeks of October, I’d get four hours of sleep.  It didn’t matter what time I slept.  If I sleep at midnight, I’ll wake up at 4.  If I slept at 4 am, I’ll wake up at 8.

But that’s not even the end of it.  For the last two weeks, my precious four hours have dwindled down to two.  My doctor prescribed something but I don’t want to get dependent on them, so I only take it once a week.

So two hours of sleep.  If I’m lucky I occasionally cross over to the three hour mark.  Thankfully, I’ve been blessed with the ability, or lack thereof for getting eyebags.  Yes my undereye circles get pretty dark, but never any eye bags.  I tell my friends that God realized that I wont sleep even if he gives them to me, so what would be the point?

And now it’s 304am and once again, sleep is hard to find.  Though the eyelids are getting a teensy-weensy bit heavy now, still not quite there.  I tell myself there must be some reason beyond just the caffeine and sugar high that is preventing me from falling asleep.  Am I worried about something? Granted there are lots of things going on in my life right now.  Am I excited about something? Perhaps. But its not as if I haven’t been worried or excited before.  Is it because I haven’t worked out  much this last month?  But then again, trying to figure out the answers to these questions will cause my brain to start working on overdrive and it’ll be even harder to sleep.

So maybe I should finish this entry and let my brain fade away.  I’ll play a TV show that doesn’t require much brain activity and attempt to sleep. There’ll be plenty of time to figure out the answers some other day.

But, yes in case you’re wondering…I am very, very tired.

That’s all for now…bow.